31 January 2008

Tonight = Awesome!

I'm ditching class for this very deserving event! Mac and I watched all three seasons over Christmas break, in a one week time period. Losers, I know. Now we're addicted.

25 January 2008

I Can Cut My Own Meat

I’m sick of being the outcast
I’m sick of having no friends
I’m sick of feeling inadequate
I'm sick of being the ugly one
I’m sick of “Are you new?”
I’m sick of your judgments
I’m sick of you not being happy for me
I’m sick of your dirty looks—I saw you
I’m sick of you not talking to me
I’m sick of being the nice one
I’m sick of you being mean to me
I’m sick of trying so hard to fit in
I’m sick of trying so hard to make friends
I’m just plain sick of trying
I’m sick of wondering what’s wrong with me
I’m sick of feeling sad
I’m sick of putting on my happy face

I think I’m getting sick

I’ll probably delete this in a few minutes, when my guilt or my worry or my embarrassment or my fears sink in, or when I get that one mean comment, but for now, let it be said…We’ll see.

14 January 2008

Finally, a post that indicates the presence of real, live friends!

Look—I have friends! On Saturday, Lindsee and Kim decided to come over and visit me. Lindsee just moved up here with here husband and Kim was here visiting. They decided to drop by my house on Saturday, but I wasn’t home. Luckily, they were able to come over later that night and we all went to dinner. It was so fun to see them. I am so happy Lindsee lives up here now. I can’t wait to hang out with her more!